Stress, Anxiety & Guilt with a Side of Life

I had a break through realization today.

I have this mental pattern that I JUST discovered. I sense it formed in high school, sometime after freshman year when I truly learned about stress. Stress, while among a top to blame for major disease, is addictive.

And yes, now that I have cleared my food addition, I have found another to strip away from my life.

In the energy medicine I practice called BodyTalk, we do a technique called anchoring to the heart or brain for individuation. Essentially what is happening here, is that the heart or brain are energetically being stripped of old, negative patterns that no longer serve you or your existence. WELL, right now, I feel like I, Me, Myself is anchoring to individuation of LIFE. The entire thing.

Every moment I am having a new, reasonably profound realization and waking up to more parts of my being and of being alive...simply because I let go of another addiction which no longer serves me: food. YAY!

So, more about this stress. What I realized today was this. Either, I have too much stress, overload my plate and handle it. But not for long, only a little while until I am totally and completely overwhelmed. THEN, I break down and become exhausted and feel guilty that I'm not working hard enough. Next, I clear my life of a few things and feel total anxiety because I'm not overwhelmed, feeling guilty or stressed.

OKAY. STOP. Something's not right here, can you tell?! Holy deer shit.

Lately especially, this has been such an ebb and flow and balance and let go. I have a lot of energy & feel the passion bubbling up inside me but then fail to recognize how to channel it.  I also realized that everything in my life truly does mirror these behaviors. I'm reading like 12 books right now, none of which I've begun to finish. I start things and go and go and go but never bother to finish or complete...

Tonight, that is the goal, to figure out how to channel it and break this cycle once and for all.  I want to replace it with constant peace, love and harmony with the ability to take action through passion and inspiration. IN-SPIRIT-ACTION.

Love. love. love. LOVE.

P.S. Indulging in raw food and being intimate with it, plus eating a ton of it all the time is working GREAT! I feel full and awesome all day long...with TONS of extra energy. YUMMM!

P.S.S. Song of the moment: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Urv7tyeJ7qE