Emotional RE: Lease

Up until two days ago, I thought I had a pretty good grasp on my emotional body. I never blew up at people, never really broke down crying and felt that I had pretty well "mastered my emotions", as I've read so many times in spiritual books, etc.

Well.
I was presented with the very real possibility that not only did I not have a grasp on my emotions but I was just completely ignoring them, shut off cold to them and had decided to go on my merry little way as if life was de bubbles.

Turns out, I had quite a few emotions to express, one being anger and the other being the F-word. Okay, well I guess the F-word is not an emotion, but I'd like to suggest it be added as one. So, after a huge argument, the first one in a very long time, I cried, beat my pillow, screamed, laid down on the floor punching & kicking, got back up and did it all over again. It was very lady like. NOT.

But when I was finished, I felt so free. I was no longer "angry at" the person (which I don't believe you are ever truly angry at anyone, they just happen to push your buttons of sensitivity and you react, or in my case, don't) and I had one of the most productive days of my life.

Not only that, a lot of my self sabotage was gone. I don't attribute it all to my emotional release because I spent the weekend in CA healing with BodyTalk but it was the icing on the cake and probably even a few of the ingredients.

So, I'm grateful. And the lesson is simply that if you feel mad, get mad. Tell the other person you're angry. Not at them, because really no matter what they do, you're not mad at them, you're really just mad. If you're sad, cry. If you're happier than heck, laugh until you pee your pants. It's HEALTHY to express emotions...little did I know;-)

I love love love love you!