Chocolate Challenges

I felt angry today.

I felt angry that there are so many chemicals in society. Angry that I decided to do this. Angry that when I get in my shower I'm washing my hair with baking soda and apple cider vinegar.

Angry that I can't get water anywhere I go because it's not spring water from the source. But then again, I don't want to drink the dead water, that's why I made that rule in the first place. I don't want to drink water that has been bottled, stripped and then packaged. Especially in plastic. It has no life force. Uh.

Angry that there isn't anywhere within 2 hours that I can eat food that is organic, local and raw. Why? Uh. I have to make it all. (Jim helps so much and bless him for that. Seriously.)

And confused. What is my life's purpose? I keep trying to put my goals on paper for 2010. I keep trying to write them out and put an action plan to them. I know I have a big purpose, I was telling my mom at 5 that I was going to "save the world". But what is it. Why doesn't life come with a manual? Seriously.

I know that this is all just a byproduct of detoxing all the old, gross stuff from my consciousness. It's such a process. I know that I can change my thoughts and just be happy, but it feels like a monumental task right now.

Okay. So after all that... there was a great part to my day too. Chocolate.

A few months ago when I was leaving coffee behind for good, I started drinking an awesome raw chocolate drink.

KICK THE COFFEE HABIT: LOVE THE CHOCOLATE!!!! (If that calls to you:-)

This is how to do it:
*1 TBS RAW Cacao
*1 TBS Agave Nectar
*Heat water (not too hot)
*Mix the cacao and agave together to make a type of paste
*Add water, stir
*ENJOY!

This will seriously take your mind right off coffee. Like coffee, it makes you feel thirsty, so make sure you have water available after drinking it. You will never look back.

I had an AHA! Moment today. Our Cali friend Joseph said, "I love the way your pantry looks." Haha. Sounds strange, I know. But it made me realize that when I went to the store, I decided to buy what was in there. I decided to stock it full of the BEST FOOD EVER. That was a choice. This microscopic realization did in fact hammer home the idea that I DO CREATE my entire life, the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful. I'm creating it now and have ever since I was born. It's ALL been a choice depending on what I focus on and in this case, good food or not.

I love you,
Terra