Yesterday I ate cooked food.
It's really hard to tell you that because not only do I want to seem like a superhero but I want to be one too ;-) But seriously, I didn't have to write it down and I would have just assumed forget about it completely. But that's not really fair. Because when the great things happen, they won't seem as real and you and me, we wouldn't be as close...because I would be pretending that it's all peachy. And yesterday just wasn't peachy.
In times past, yesterday would have been it. That would have been my final straw and breaking point. It has been a really rough week, which I plan to do a video blog about shortly, and I just started bawling yesterday morning. I couldn't help it. It felt like my whole world had come crashing down on me.
Not only did I eat cooked food, I really ate. I went to the local coffee shop here in Cave Creek and ordered a nice hot egg, cheese, avocado panini and mint tea. (I even contemplated getting a coffee, but at the point my system is at, coffee with syrups and half and half would have probably sent me into bed for the day.) So, I ate it. The bread, surprisingly was the only thing I didn't love. The rest, I practically swallowed...but not without burning my tongue a bit.
Later in the day, I went to Whole Foods to get Jim some food and I was already in an eating frenzy (in my head) so I bought myself a decedent $4.39- 4" cheesecake. Not just any old cheesecake though, a Carmel, nut cheesecake. And I'm not going to lie, it was really freakin' good.
Next, I ate some roasted vegetables, quinoa salad and then some tabouli. (I also had fresh apple juice and a salad, but in my mind...those weren't even considered after everything else I had been eating.) I didn't feel awful at the end of the day and I didn't wake up feeling terrible either. I really thought I would, but I didn't. So, that was cool. Normally, I would have eaten myself into oblivion again today because I didn't feel sick yesterday, but today was different. I ate my manna bread (which I consider raw-enough AND deliciously healthy) and raw organic almond butter. I had my raw cacao/agave nectar drink this morning and made grapefruit juice this evening to finish off my day and that was it.
So, I think things are actually changing. I think that this is going to work out.
I've been doing a lot of research on RAW food lifestyles and the differences between them and other lifestyles. I'm finding overall that raw is a good base but might not be the best over all. More soon.
Love. love. love. love.
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I think that you're doing great, and even with a few cooked meals, you're still well over 90% raw, which is astounding!
ReplyDeleteKeep up the good work. As long as you're making conscious efforts, you'll be rewarded with progress!
- Jeremy
Once again, Terra, I say, how brave to share your personal relationship with food.
ReplyDeleteI've sure been there.
How honest with yourself, and rewarding too, to honor and go with it.
I applaud you, your journey, and the fact that your sharing da chit with all of us~
Keep on keepin' on girl~
I believe in YOU!
I just wanted to say how brave you are to keep it real. Failure makes people feel closer to each other and it is completely natural with such big changes like this. It's honest, and it only makes people respect your more (if that were possible). Failure matched with continuing on your path makes others inspired, and also makes people watching feel like they, too, could reach that goal because they are not afraid of failing. I think that's one of the major reasons kids soak up new difficult things (like a language) like sponges because they are not afraid to fail when they try something new out. Way to go to put it in the blog; it really makes me feel that more connected to the process you are going through. As you would say: love, love, love!
ReplyDeleteI love that you are so honest. As Shannon said, it really does make me respect you and what you are doing soooo much more...even though I already have tons of respect for you:) You are very inspiring and I love love love reading your blog! Keep up the great work girl!! You are AWESOME!!
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