an energetic matrix.

I stood in the middle of Changing Hands last week with a fully loaded debit card from my last pay check and didn't want to buy a single thing. Not-a-one.

My awareness opened and I felt as if I already intuitively knew all the information in the entire book store...& beyond.

But why?

I obviously haven't awoke in the middle of April with delusions of being an infinite, almighty genius. So, what was the deal?

Well, I have a theory...

All the information you could ever need or wish to learn exists in the "Air" all around you. The only thing is that this "Air" is not air (well it is but is is also...an energetic matrix of energy & information. So, everything that has ever been thought, expressed or created throughout time is available to anyone at anytime. This is obvious to us via the internet because we experience this through our senses, site, touch, sound, etc. We can get online, search in "Google" & there we have the information we want, or close to it. Unfortunately, this method is not perfect.

I believe it's not so obvious to us otherwise, as in coming out of thin air, because we have become so dependent on our physical senses.

To try better to define what I'm talking about, have you ever been asked a question along a subject matter you sort of knew something about and then you were able to give this long answer but called it "pulling it out of your *backthere*". Well, it's likely that a lot of what you said was true and that you were actually pulling it out of this matrix.

The best way I've found to fine tune the ability to pull information "out of thin air" is be in silence a little bit more. For example, I quit listening to the radio in my car (okay, and here's the honest part...because it stopped working!) so I drive in silence. But after only a half hour of feeling sorry for myself that my radio quit working, new thoughts started coming into my mind, inspiration happened and by the time I got to my destination, I was so excited about life and all the amazing things I knew about, I could hardly remember where I was going or what I was doing...

Anyhow, my point is that the universe is unlimited. Whether you look at it spiritually or scientifically, it's still unlimited. We can't thoroughly define anything and doing so only limits ourselves and our perception of what is.

So, baby, just for today... be unlimited.

LOVE love love love!!!!

New Beginnings...& Shampoo

It's officially the eve of new beginnings. I can't believe it's come so fast.

Tomorrow I'm finished with my job at Best Buddies & I start my "big girl life." ;-)

I feel so giddy & not once have I looked at the decision and regreted it...just streamlining forward. There is so much to do when starting a business & so much energy is necessary to get things off the ground, but I know it's the best thing I could be doing with my time.

The next few months are totally booked which is VERY exciting!!! In two weeks, I head to CA for BodyTalk Modules 4 & 7 followed by a meeting to become an Independent Contractor for one of my all time favorite companies. (More details soon lovesies!)

Next, I am off to Sedona for another conference, up to Silverton, CO to visit family, over to Austin, Texas, up to New Jersey/New York and then off to the Netherlands & Greece. Wow, I feel so grateful for such an amazing line up!!

I want to share that I started washing my hair again.

In the middle of March, my head started to itch and I thought, wow, that's strange. By the end of the day, I was so upset about my hair that I just wanted to sit down and cry, again. While it was starting to level out a little bit after 75 days of not washing it with anything but apple cider, baking soda & lemon, it had its ups and downs and I realized that I just didn't feel....CLEAN. These feelings took a huge toll on my self confidence & it hit me like...a ton of bricks that it just isn't worth it to feel like this. In fact, it's ruining my ability to have the best health ever because of these toxic thoughts.

I think no-poo is great for some people and I think it's great for people who don't live in the city, but right here and now for me, it just isn't the best solution ever.

So, I scoured Whole Foods "Whole Body" department for an hour reading ingredient labels and finally settled on Ultra Aestetics MSM Shampoo and Conditioner. There is one mild soap in it that is biodegradable as far as I can tell. I only have to wash my hair once every 2-4 days now because the oils no longer over produce like they used to.

After I washed my hair with it, an undeniable excitement came over me. It became clear that ego should not stand in the way of health, in any sense. It had for me because I was determined not to wash my hair...but why? To prove a point? I'm still doing great things for my body & the planet...so as far as I'm concerned...it's even better than the alternative!

Well, that's it for today...

Much love love love love.

5.5 Miles Later...

...I felt calm, peaceful, strong & gorgeous. I was nothing short of completely sweaty from head to toe and my feet were throbbing.

I hadn't run over 3 miles in over a year but I had set my mind to it Friday and made it happen. Running has become like meditation for me. Thoughts flow in and out and I begin to better understand the essence of life on a new level.

One thought that keeps coming to me is this: people replace 200,000,000,000 cells per day. Yes, that's billion. Basically, your entire body is replaced every 7 years and most of it is replaced in the first year. Every 4 months, some of your major organs are completely replaced (on a cellular level). But cells are all that we have/all that we are made up of. So what does this mean?

This means that our outward appearance and the way we feel inside is almost completely governed by out mind. Stretch marks? Wrinkles? What else... cellulite...can all be dissolved if we no longer BELIEVE they are there. Yes, there is scientific data behind WHY stretch marks, wrinkles & cellulite exist, however, the first thing you have to do is change the belief that they are there in the first place. Right, because EVERYTHING that exists once had to be imagined, right? Come along, now, shall we play a little make believe?

Imagine what it looks like when it's totally gone...what does it look like to have perfect skin, a gorgeous, tight butt and phenomenal legs? Can't imagine it on yourself? Put you in your perfect body (in your mind's eye) and check you out. Damn...

My friend said to me the other day, "My life is so stuck." And I told her to start eating raw foods, cut the crap out of her diet and start complimenting everyone she knows. She told me that maybe when she found another job & things got better she would try it. The point is that if you don't TRY to shift something and dis-guard it as something that "just won't work", it NEVER will work for you.

"Reasons or results." -T. Harv Eker

Post Run Recovery Smoothie:
*Raw almond butter
*Vitamineral Green
*Blue-green Algae
*Earth Minerals
*Maca Root
*Coconut Oil
*Coconut Flakes
*Lemon
*Blueberries
*Sedona Spring Water
*Spirulina
*Hemp protein powder
YUM!

Love. love. LoVe. LOVE.

Resignation

The single thing that gets me most excited about the day is writing to you, so thank you, thank you for the opportunity! Seriously, even if we don't chat everyday, I love knowing that on some level, we're communicating.

I'm here to tell you today that I resigned from both of my paying jobs just over a month ago. I know, you might be disappointed that I have not told you yet, but I just wasn't ready. As you might have guessed, I've received significant flack from my family with the usual, "how are you going to pay the bills" and "what in the world are you going to do?" Both valid questions. My answers, however, even MORE valid.

See, it wasn't a whimsical decision, quite the contrary, it was a decision I made guided by "the universe". Now, "the universe" is in quotes simply because I think it's different for everyone. Some people have a relationship with God, others with their intuition, some have no idea what it is but still know that it's there. For me, it's the divine creation, essence of life or..."the universe".

Alright, so you're probably wondering, how the heck did you know?!!! And that's a legit question. I've been telling my mom since I was a little girl that I'm going to "save the world". It's a lot more romantic sounding when you're 5, but I'll take it. While my definition of what it means to "save the world" has dramatically changed, I know that NOW is the time. So, come the beginning of March, it was time to release my job with Best Buddies & as a personal assistant for the Environmental Author in Phoenix. I've been finished with the PA job for over a month and I'm finished at Best Buddies one week from today, 4/15. This means one week from today I will have total responsibility for my entire income. YES!

There has not been an instant in which I was unsure about my decision. I knew it was right then, and I know it's right now. Money is flowing into my life like never before and I'm SO GRATEFUL....

I've been offered two jobs since I've quit & my own business is flourishing... CAN'T WAIT TO TELL YOU MORE! The people & resources are flooding into my life and I'm soooo grateful! After all, what's that handy little universal law? Oh yes, the one that says when you create a void, the universe will fill it...all you have to do is decide what you want it to fill it with.

I've found that the formula to success is three part.

1. First and foremost, HEAL YOURSELF!!!!!!! Everything that comes into our lives is a mirror of us. EVERYTHING. Even the people, places and things we want to deny are ANYTHING like us, are exactly like us in some way.
2. Create the void so what you want can fill it
3. Put an immense amount of energy & dedicated work into what you want & dedicate it to the betterment of humanity.
4. And a little bonus one, get crazy excited about your vision every day. Wake up and TASTE, TOUCH, SEE, SMELL, HEAR & FEEL, totally experience your new reality...

Here's to trusting in your inner voice...leaping before the net appears;-)

Love. LOVE. love. LOVEEE

Raw Milk

Raw Milk. Yes.

Well, I tried it yesterday and it tasted amazing, it was sweeter than anything I'd ever known to be "milk". For me, though, it didn't hit the spot or do the trick. My body was not very responsive to it and I got a wee bit bloated.

But, what is raw milk? It's milk that typically comes straight from a local farm, in this case, it was from a farm I was staying close to in Fort Collins, CO, that has not been nuked, cooked or pasteurized. The milk at the store has been pasteurized or ultra-pasteurized meaning that all the nutrients that might have been in the milk, have been killed and the molecular formation of the milk has been altered from the heat.

So, if allt he nutrients have been killed, then what's with the milk and calcium link?

Well, there isn't one. Milk has been shown to leach calcium from the bones and cause disease meaning that someone, or some entity has done a really amazing marketing job of making you think otherwise. Not only that, but cows that come from factory farms and provide a lot of the milk that's on the shelves today leak blood and puss into the milk from being so unhealthy- hyped up on steroids, antibiotics & sick- that they can barely stand and bleed from their utters. If this isn't bad enough, they also have a 3-4 times shorter lifespan than cows that are free range on farms.

One of the benefits, aside from not having disgusting puss & blood in your milk and not having calcium leached from your bones is that raw milk can provide healthy probiotics for your large intestine. Probiotics are critical to help grow your friendly bacteria and foster a happy n' healthy digestive system.

So anyway, I would totally suggest finding a local dairy & purchasing your milk from there (raw) instead. It has major health benefits, major planetary benefits and let's be real, it's great karma!

ENJOY, in joy!

Love. love. LOVE. EVOL!